An intense thrill of horror ran through her as she listened to him talk. There was no mistaking what he was saying. Her serial killer ate people. That explained the lack of bodies. He was a cannibal. He was a cannibal and he wanted to eat her, found her scent good enough to eat. Her thoughts were racing as she tilted her head, narrowing her gaze on the monster in front of her.
That thrill of horror did nothing to stop the thrumming of her heart, the roiling heat inside her, the way her body suddenly ached to touch his, or the way she swallowed hard around the feelings. An unwanted memory flashed through her mind. Her, standing on the embankment of the canal, the same place she had taken Oscar just a month ago, dressed in her newly made suit and jacket, the mask she had made herself in her hands. The sound of footsteps through the tunnel behind her, and a girl walking out. A tall, russet-skinned, dark-haired girl, in a green and black dress, padded with armor and complete with a butterfly-winged mask. A click in her chest as they locked eyes, and then a smile crossing both their faces, despite never having met each other before.
They had known one another, her and Alice. Right when they met, they had known each other. She had known Alice with her whole heart, even before she knew her name. And Alice had become the most important person in her life for almost three years. Even now, Alice still affected her, still helped her, still hurt her.
A click in her chest, not unlike this one. One that had been euphoric and joyful, unlike this one so full of attraction and heat. No, god no.
Wildcat believed in several things that had stopped her from dating before Oscar. She believed in the soulmate theory, the theory that there was a person for everyone, that everyone had one person in the world who would complete them, could balance them. She believed in the idea of love at first sight, too. That when you met your soulmate, you would know them, they would know you, and you would love each other from the moment that you met. She had believed this ever since she was a child. She had believed it when she and Alice clicked the first time they had ever seen each other.
Alice had been her soulmate. They had balanced each other perfectly, had evened out the scales, had fallen into orbit around each other like satellites around their planets. Perfect other halves, perfectly in sync, who understood each other so well they didn’t need words. But Alice had died, and they had never really been in love with one another. Alice had always been meant for her as a friend. Someone who filled her voids in a way that left her whole enough for whoever came next.
Now, she wished she didn’t believe in any of it.
Now, she wished that she had died when Alice had.
Now, she wished that she could run away, forget all about any of her beliefs, forget about this feeling she felt now.
It wasn’t love. No. But it was everything that would eventually become love, if given the right circumstances. It was the passionate want, the indescribable need, the softening of her edges, the tumbling of her walls. It left a path wide open, and she was desperately trying to close it back up, to build newer, stronger walls to block that entrance.
Was she a monster? Was she broken? What did this mean? She steeled herself and twirled her hammer around. The smooth side flipped to the back, and the studded side flipped to the front. She would be merciful, she decided. She would make the fight quick, and as painless as possible. And then, while he was in prison, she would visit him. She would figure this out then. Because right now, she had a life to protect, and another to save.
She couldn’t afford to be distracted by the fact that he was her soulmate.
If she was soulmates with this monster, then… she didn’t know. She didn’t know what this meant. She didn’t know how to think about this. Did this make her less worthy than already felt for the love of these people, for their veneration, for their gratitude? Her breathing hitched in her chest as she felt his heartbeat through the pavement. It was strong, even, almost perfectly so, but it had hitched twice, raising in tempo. The first time, she wasn’t sure why. The second time, was when he made her his offer. For her to take the man’s place.
She ignored the flush on her face, the quivering in her body, and the heat that called for him. Instead, she tilted her head to the side and let her voice fall back into its natural pitch and rasp, and she said, in a tightly controlled voice, “Don’t think I can do that either. I don’t think you’re going to be eating tonight. You’d be better off turning yourself in to me. I don’t suppose I could persuade you to surrender, could I?”
Despite the lower pitch, despite the rasp, there was something else in her voice. An uncertainty mixed with an edge of want. She bit the inside of her cheek, letting the pain clear her mind. She couldn’t be distracted in any way. The man behind her could die. She could get injured. Or even worse, she could explode, her heat burning everything in her vicinity. She shivered and held her ground, waiting to see what he would do.