Ringing in the ears.
Pain.
Hate.
Juniper's hands found his shoulder, burning-- another sharp pain lost in the tide of agony and fatigue that had nearly drowned him. The whine was defeaning. All he could hear was the flicker of a flame-wreathed corpse-- the thudding crack of skull upon stone-- the hammering rhythm of his heartbeat. His hand was wrapped tight enough in the vampire's collar to rip the cloth; his fist was cocked back, poised to finish the job. He was unconscious. Dead, even, from a cursory glance. He could finish the job. Kill him.
But then she was there, and the burn found his mind, and he paused-- twisting away in a dull shock, eyes wild as they settled upon the wisewoman, and then to the girl. Fist still cocked back, breath still heaving, clawed wounds and blood soaking his scales as it dripped from his maw and fist in equal measure. The cloth that wrapped his knuckles had split, coming away sodden with crimson and fully stained; his scales were split along the hand, the abnormal bruising of his flesh leaving a deep, rusted tone up to the forearm. He said nothing, for a moment. A great shameful silence passed in the space between the five of them, until Emryk's gaze flickered with a low, sharp pain-- a pleading stare, perhaps, as he looked from Juniper, to Nessa, and finally to Emer.
"Why?" He spoke. The word cracked as he whispered it; his eyes burned. "So-- so he can k-kill-- and I have to allow it? The same mistake as Naveen? Why do they get to live, and others-- die for it?" Gone was the rage, gone was the fury, replaced with a low, whimpering hiss of contempt that he could hardly control. His breath came out in a ragged heaving; Emryk's snout curled into a grimace as he looked up at the sky, fist still raised, arm still ready. It would be so easy. It would be so quick. He let out a grunt of frustration, low and pained, before a sigh accompanied the noise.
"... he didn't deserve what you did to him." A quiet, shuddering condemnation fell harsh as his gaze found Lucien-- almost peaceful in his sleep. How fortunate. Face battered, but he could feel the faintest stir of muscle beneath. No breath. Never any breath. He could have caved the bastard's head in, and there would hardly have been a change. What satisfaction would he garner from killing that which was already a corpse? "And you deserve so, so much worse, but you live because of them. Their mercy. That you do not deserve." But life was hardly ever what people deserved, so he would settle for this. Whatever this was.
Emryk's eyes glanced up to the growing crowd, his breaths labored as he dropped his fist, finally, and relaxed his grip upon Lucien's collar. Old urges harkened back to the days of the pit; the cheer of the gathered crowd, the warmth of shed blood upon the flesh. The rawness of knuckles, the soreness of bones that came with the low satisfaction of victory. But there was nothing to be won, here. Pyrrhic. Empty. A tired gaze found Nessa's, devoid of satisfaction.
"Please send for the Captain and First Mate at the Last Meal. Immediately." He stated. "We need to leave." And with a low rattle of strained lungs, the Baron stood-- still holding Lucien by his collar, and dragging him with uneven steps back to the ship. He said nothing more-- gaze fixed forward, hand clenching bloodied cloth. The sobering lull of reality made living a chore, but he persisted. Somehow.
"I will regret this." He muttered to himself, hauling the vampire's body back to the Nox. Both men lived another day, and not by each other's hand. "... worse still, I know that I will."