Spork’s revelation was not news to Mari. She’d known that he was, as they put it, ‘an asshole’ since her mother had first told her that her father had gone to live in his own apartment. Originally they’d promised that time would be split between the two places, that it was close enough that it wouldn’t disrupt her normal routines too much.
Except Keith’s place wasn’t close enough to Spork’s for them to walk over, and he hadn’t been willing to drive her in this direction unless it was to return her to her mother. Like taking her to see her friend was more of an annoying errand than something fathers did all the time. Split time became weekend stays. Then those weekends began to alternate. Not long after that, they became little more than dinner at a restaurant near Keith’s house and sleeping at his place before catching the first ride back to her mom’s. If he noticed that she was using his card to pay for it, he never said anything.
Those dinners became less and less frequent, until they too faded into obscurity. All that was left were the bare pillars that were required to maintain what could generously be called a presence in her life. Mari got a card with a check in it for her birthday, and he stayed for approximately an hour every Christmas. Keith also made the occasional appearance at her public competitions, events, or milestones. She didn’t doubt that he’d appear at graduation, sitting through the ceremony and politely clapping, taking a single picture with his hand lightly on her shoulder before leaving again.
She’d changed her last name to her mother’s as soon as she had the opportunity for fuck’s sake. Mari knew her father was an ass, she hadn’t wanted anything to do with him as soon as it became apparent that he didn’t want anything to do with her. She didn’t realize that her fingers had sunk into the mossy ground. She ripped them out, wiping her hands free of the wet earth that clung to them. Her breathing had become ragged as she’d been lost in her own thoughts, and she glanced in Spork’s direction.
Without hesitation, she roughly grabbed the offered cigarette, jammed it in her mouth, and sucked in a breath. The smoke that filled her lungs was harsh and bitter, scalding hot and ashy, and just as quickly as it entered, it left in a series of violent, hacking coughs. She held the offending tobacco product out from her body, as if reducing its proximity would lessen its effects. White-hot tears welled up in the corner of her eyes, which she wished could be solely attributed to her coughing fit.
“That.” She choked out, her voice rasping as the words slid against her raw throat. “Fucking. Asshole!” Mari yelled, slamming a fist against the ground as her scream was cut short by another coughing fit. “Of course he’d do this now. You’re about a decade late, Keith!” Her words were interspersed with coughs, fist colliding with moss to punctuate her words.
She took a few shuddering breaths, chest heaving as the last of the smoke left her lungs. She brought herself to her feet, unable to keep from pacing agitatedly. Flashes of something kept passing through her mind: spelling bees, science fairs, and the like, all with Keith in the background, the same neutral expression.
“He’s not just an asshole, Spork. Sometimes I wish I had one of your parents instead, because at least they pretend to fucking care. Keith treats me like I’m some doll that he gets to take out and show to people before putting me back in a glass cage until the next time he has to show me off!” Mari was yelling at this point, moving around the small clearing with envenomed rancor. Her cheeks burned and tears leaked from the corners of her eyes. She made no move to wipe them away.
“He didn't care about being at any of my events, he didn't care about seeing me do well, he didn't even give me a 'good job'! He just wanted to do the bare minimum to stay in my life, the least he could do while still claiming that he had a hand in every single thing that I did good at. And you wanna know the worst part?" She wheeled on Spork, pointing a finger in their direction uselessly.
“I know for a fucking fact that he was counting down the days until I turned eighteen. You know how my mom got the divorce papers today? It also contained a copy of their marriage agreement. You know what it said?” She knew Spork wouldn’t answer but she didn’t care, didn’t care who heard her at this point. She crouched down in front of them, eyes locked with unseeing eyes.
“It said that if Keith divorced my mom, he’d have to pay a ton of money in child support. The only way to get out of it was to wait until I turned eighteen.” She let that sink in for a moment, flopping down next to Spork and staring up at the trees above them, ignoring the faint damp that permeated the area. “Then, no more money. No child support, no money to mom. If he waited until I was an adult, he'd be able to sign away any claim to me as his daughter." Mari sat with Spork in silence, tears quietly sliding down her face and falling to the ground below.
“What kind of guy does that?” She said quietly. “And why did he want to be a dad?”