She grinned at the dumpster fire joke, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. Those held a bit of sadness, now, a bit of loneliness she would never admit to. A part of her still remembered the sheer joy of running through the night with Alice, of carrying her on the wind and then dropping her as she bent the ground to meet her. It remembered a hand in hers and a laugh to match hers and missed the warmth of feeling freely. It missed the old Sam, who let people in and was friendly and genuine.
But she could never be that again. Not ever.
So instead she focused on the details Todd was freely giving her. She nodded along as he talked about Montana before responding. “Billings, I’ve never heard of it. Well, if I ever pass through Montana in the winter for some weird reason, I’ll be sure to find a small town to ride it out in.”
Why was she even thinking about any of this? What was it that was dragging up all of this bullshit right now? It wasn’t like… Shit. She hadn’t talked to another human being for more than five minutes in the last month she’d been there. This was the first real human interaction she had had since leaving her parents behind in Lockbourne. And that had been years ago.
That had to be the reason she was feeling weird around this guy.
“So, what’s there to do around here? Like I said, I only got here a bit ago and haven’t had a chance to do anything outside renovating the gym.”