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The paperwork had all been relatively standard, from what Sam could find from her research, as she sat on the couch of her apartment. The comfortable red fabric molded around her and let her relax in a way she hadn’t in days. There was a certain comfort in knowing that someone was going to help her, that she wasn’t alone in this anymore. Between Julian and Adelyn, they would find him. They would find Todd, and she’d hold him, and everything would be okay again.
She had signed all of the pages, and hadn’t even balked at the price. She would be willing to pay anything to get Todd back. Being without him felt like breathing with only one lung, seeing with only one eye, and existing with only half a heart. A little fee like this wasn’t going to be the thing that she stopped at to get him back. Julian could have everything but her soul if it meant having Todd back, not that she would admit that.
After she had finished the paperwork, Sam had looked around the apartment and winced. She had a few minutes, maybe ten, before Julian arrived to have his look around. Just enough time to at least clean up her slightly excessive amount of mugs and plates that littered the living room. He didn’t need to know she had been sleeping on the couch, practically living on it, the last few days. She couldn’t stand to sleep in her bed without him. Not after she had gotten so suddenly used to his presence, his chill, his arms.
The cleaning commenced, and she was proud that at the end of those ten minutes, she had cleared almost all traces of having lived on the couch for the last week. It wasn’t spotless, and the blankets were just folded on the edge of the couch, but it was better than it had been. It looked like it normally did, with books and CDs and her usual collection of art supplies scattered around the coffee table. Her new easel leaned against the wall by the entertainment center, the old one having been a casualty in her meltdown a few months earlier. In fact, she’d had to replace a lot of the paintings and prints on the walls as well after that.
Sam sat back down on the couch, easing back into the soft but thick cotton. The couch had been her first purchase when she had decided to stay in Pittsburgh. Very few things of hers had come with her from the apartment in Columbus. Her music, her books, her clothes, and her art supplies had been the majority of it. Everything else had been bought when she had decided that maybe she wasn’t quite ready to die. When she had decided that maybe something worth living for still existed. The gym, new friends, her passions– and then, finally, Todd.
Everything came back to him eventually. Without him, she wouldn’t have stayed as long as she had. Without him, even with the gym and Adelyn and Nat, she would have gone to Philladelphia. She would have confronted Obsidian months ago, and she probably would have died. Todd was the reason she was alive. He was her reason for everything, now.
She needed him back.
She was already falling apart without him. Unable to focus, unable to work, unable to take care of herself. He would have been devastated, she knew, to know his disappearance had done this to her. As much as she wanted to just power through, to tough it out, she couldn’t. He was half her soul. She was only half a person without him. It wasn’t fair to him, she knew, but it was the truth. Sam couldn’t exist in full without Todd at her side.
That was why it was so important that everything went well on this visit. She flipped the keys to the building around in her hands, fingering the key to Todd’s apartment next door. She was so lost in thought, that if it hadn’t been for her ability to sense vibrations, she likely wouldn’t have even noticed if someone had come up to the exterior hall door.